Over the past 10-11 months, I have often repeated to myself, "Slow and steady wins the race." Prior to my onset of Dyautonomia, I was your typical Type A personality. Goal-oriented, busy, jumping from one thing to the next, over-committing myself at every turn, running 3 miles a few times a week for exercise... you get the idea. Now imagine taking this Type A person and not allowing her to express herself in this way any longer. I often can't commit in advance since I don't know how my POTS will be acting that day. I feel far less reliable. I can't just jump out of bed in the morning and go for a run, or get so busy that I forget to eat or drink most of the day. Everything must be done slowly and with patience. I can't let go of the structure lest the POTS senses the weak spot and makes its move.
post about the next right step. I thought ok, yeah, just make the next step... gather up your things, take a swig of water and drive to work. Then a little later this message was further driven home. A new Facebook friend whom I had begin chatting with this week through a POTS group posted the message for that day from her devotional, it read:
Follow me one step at a time. That is all I require of you. In fact that is the only way to move through this space/time world. You see huge mountains looming, and you start wondering how you are going to scale through those heights. Meanwhile because you are not looking where you are going, you stumble on the easy path where I am leading you now. As I help you get back on your feet, you tell me how worried you are about the cliffs up ahead. But you don't know what will happen today, much less tomorrow. Our path may take an abrupt turn, leading you away from those mountains than is visible from this distance. If I do lead you up the cliffs, I will equip you thoroughly for that strenuous climb. I will even give My angels charge over you, to preserve you in all your ways. Keep your mind on the present journey enjoying My Presence. Walk by Faith not by sight trusting Me to open up the way before you.
Writing this post put this song in my head from Santa Claus is Coming
to Town. Yes, I know it isn't Christmas time, but if you know me, you
know I LOVE all things Christmas.